Dear Nanny, I know you wouldnt think I was mad writing to you as I know you used to write to your Mum. I really hope you can see it. I won't know until I get there I guess. I just wanted to say we love you and still miss you. Hardly a day goes by when we dont think about you or talk about you. You are quite the celebrity, you've even had your photo on facebook!:) We are all a little scarred by your illness and what you had to go through, sometimes it is hard not to feel angry or bitter.What happened to you will never be okay. We just hope that you are some place better now. There's lots going on in my life at the moment and I often just wish I could pop round for a coffee. I know you would give me your honest opinion. I just wish I had spent more time with you when I had, had the opportunity. I so want you to be prud of me, but it is hard when I am often not proud of myself. I have made mistakes. I know that you would have not judged and offered me your guidence. I also love country music now, doesnt do wonders for my street cred but I tell people 'I can't help it, its in my genes!' :)I'd love to be able to make you a mix tape and swing by with it!why is it in life you often don't realise what you really have until it is gone! We know whatever we do fundraising wise we cannot bring you back to us, but we know because of the person you were you would want us to try and stop the suffering of others. I picked up a leaflet in Asda earlier, 'Nominate a cause' and I plan to nominate MND. Sending you a cuddle All my love Julie xxxx