Dear Nanny, I know you wouldnt think I was mad writing to you as I know you used to write to your Mum. I really hope you can see it. I won't know until I get there I guess. I just wanted to say we love you and still miss you. Hardly a day goes by when we dont think about you or talk about you. You are quite the celebrity, you've even had your photo on facebook!:) We are all a little scarred by your illness and what you had to go through, sometimes it is hard not to feel angry or bitter.What happened to you will never be okay. We just hope that you are some place better now. There's lots going on in my life at the moment and I often just wish I could pop round for a coffee. I know you would give me your honest opinion. I just wish I had spent more time with you when I had, had the opportunity. I so want you to be prud of me, but it is hard when I am often not proud of myself. I have made mistakes. I know that you would have not judged and offered me your guidence. I also love country music now, doesnt do wonders for my street cred but I tell people 'I can't help it, its in my genes!' :)I'd love to be able to make you a mix tape and swing by with it!why is it in life you often don't realise what you really have until it is gone! We know whatever we do fundraising wise we cannot bring you back to us, but we know because of the person you were you would want us to try and stop the suffering of others. I picked up a leaflet in Asda earlier, 'Nominate a cause' and I plan to nominate MND. Sending you a cuddle All my love Julie xxxx

THINKING OF YOU ON MOTHER'S DAY, Shirley

I never knew so many bad times Could follow me so mercilessly It's almost surreal All the pain that I feel The future ain't what it used to be It doesn't matter what they're thinking It doesn't matter what they're thinking of me It's always so cold I'm not to young to be old The future ain't what it used to be Were there ever any stars in the sky Did the sun ever shine so bright? Do you have any dreams I could borrow Just to get me through the lonely night? Is there anything left to hold on to When the rivers wash it all away? Is there anyone left to hold on to Is there anything left I can say? Say a prayer for the falling angels Stem the tide of the rising waters Toll a bell for the broken hearted Burn a torch for your sons and daughters The endless night has got a hold of me Dark days are pulling me forward And all the tears are washing over me- I'm crying, lost forever- In a future that ain't what it used to be No more no more no more