Dear Nanny,
I know you wouldnt think I was mad writing to you as I know you used to write to your Mum. I really hope you can see it. I won't know until I get there I guess. I just wanted to say we love you and still miss you. Hardly a day goes by when we dont think about you or talk about you. You are quite the celebrity, you've even had your photo on facebook!:)
We are all a little scarred by your illness and what you had to go through, sometimes it is hard not to feel angry or bitter.What happened to you will never be okay. We just hope that you are some place better now.
There's lots going on in my life at the moment and I often just wish I could pop round for a coffee. I know you would give me your honest opinion. I just wish I had spent more time with you when I had, had the opportunity. I so want you to be prud of me, but it is hard when I am often not proud of myself. I have made mistakes. I know that you would have not judged and offered me your guidence.
I also love country music now, doesnt do wonders for my street cred but I tell people 'I can't help it, its in my genes!' :)I'd love to be able to make you a mix tape and swing by with it!why is it in life you often don't realise what you really have until it is gone!
We know whatever we do fundraising wise we cannot bring you back to us, but we know because of the person you were you would want us to try and stop the suffering of others. I picked up a leaflet in Asda earlier, 'Nominate a cause' and I plan to nominate MND.
Sending you a cuddle
All my love
Julie xxxx
ju118
21st March 2012
THINKING OF YOU ON MOTHER'S DAY, Shirley
Jeremy
3rd April 2011
I never knew so many bad times
Could follow me so mercilessly
It's almost surreal
All the pain that I feel
The future ain't what it used to be
It doesn't matter what they're thinking
It doesn't matter what they're thinking of me
It's always so cold
I'm not to young to be old
The future ain't what it used to be
Were there ever any stars in the sky
Did the sun ever shine so bright?
Do you have any dreams I could borrow
Just to get me through the lonely night?
Is there anything left to hold on to
When the rivers wash it all away?
Is there anyone left to hold on to
Is there anything left I can say?
Say a prayer for the falling angels
Stem the tide of the rising waters
Toll a bell for the broken hearted
Burn a torch for your sons and daughters
The endless night has got a hold of me
Dark days are pulling me forward
And all the tears are washing over me-
I'm crying, lost forever-
In a future that ain't what it used to be
No more no more no more
gerald
17th October 2008